February 12th 2015

Self-made-fictional story. Hope you'll give a comment about it!

Dear XXX,
    I recently lost my loved one named Joan. I lost in in the library, when it accidentally slipped into another boy's palm. I searched it for many weeks, but it was no where to be seen. It's been a rough 2 months, since the day I lost Joan. I think of it everyday, and it has been appearing in my dream, almost every night since. Whenever I wake up and realising that it's not on the table, I cry for it for at least 15 minutes every time.

    It meant a lot to me, and I miss it very much. We had splendid memories together, as it is always beside me. I took it to expensive restaurants a few times before. I even took it to Paris on one of the Valentines Day, and also Canada's finest restaurants on Christmas Eve. Those were nice dates that I'll keep inside me. I always bring it to my favourite, whenever I feel sad and alone.

    Whenever I feel down, it'll always be with me. I talk to it about my issues, whether its between my family or my friends. I hug it sometimes. I feels good. It has always been with me through my tough times, and also happy times. We share our moments together. Whenever I write my diaries, there's always a pert of it in my diary. I can never finish my days of diaries without it.

    I have to talk to it everyday, or else it wouldn't be counted off as a day for me. Although she never really reply me, and keep silent all the time, I still love it, for as it's silence means a thousand words to me. I've heard its voice talking back to me, but it's very rare. People say I'm crazy, but it doesn't stop my love towards my lovely Joan.

    I remember there's this year when I was 25, that I allowed it in someone else's palms. He took it away, and I there's no communication in between me and Joey and the man. I was worried that it'll never come back. It seems that I'll never come back to me again. When it finally appeared in front of my home's door one day, I was shocked. I was so mad at it, that I didn't talk to it for week.s It was a tough period of time, but then everything got back again. I never get to contact that man that took Joan away from me ever again. 

    Joan meant so much to me, and also fills my life with joyfulness and happiness. I miss the feel of it in the palm of my hand, through all the times we had together. I miss the sharpness and fine of words that it can be written out. Now that it's gone, I feel terrible. I hope I find it sooner, and that it'll be back in my palms again.

-Saw

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February 11th 2015

I remember how my mother use to tell me that I must finish my homework before I play. Now that I finish everything and my childhood is over.
No more bike riding with friends.
No more Facebook Games.
No more going neighbour's.
No more watching cartoon.
No more playing with toys.
No more running around.
No more going to the park.
No more life.
Just the me with a computer, and nothing I can do with it. This wasn't the future I was expecting when I was young. Didn't expect high school to be like this. I thought it'll be better. What's happening now, wasn't expected as years before.
People online, but AFK
Brother at home, but in sleeping.
Father at home, but locked in.
Mother went overseas.
Friends with freedom, but in another way.
Everything is different. Everyone's busy with their things. This wasn't any-how even close to what I though being a 16 year-old would be. I don't want this. I want a change. This life is terrible.
I am free to do whatever I want now.
I am free to use Facebook 24-7 now.
I am free to go out on my own now.
I am free to do almost anything now.
But it just seems the world is in another point-of-eyes now.

February 9th 2015

As I entered my neighbour's car to go to school today, I noticed something magnificent. He changed his car's audio system. The old system was at least 20 years old. He got a new set of them, and it was amazing. I've been waiting for this day, for it's sort of the only time I listen to music. He also bought new Taylor Swift album, and plays it in the car. My ride to school is so awesome now. I like going to school now, but just the trip to school, not the school itself.

As I reached school, same thing happens every time. There's assembly in the morning, and we'll have our prayers. Something was different today as class started. I have a personal study desk, next to my working desk. It's the biggest they have in school, and I own it. Basically I had a huge study desk, and a 2 seated working desk, at a corner of the classroom. A new student came into our class. Since he has no seat, next to me it is. He is definitely invading my comfortable, huge corner space, and I am certainly unhappy about it. But I guess that's just how life goes. There's no space for him. I hope he'll suck in class, and drop to the lower class so i don't have to sit next to him. Nothing is wrong with him. It's just I don't like a thing next to my place.

Nothing else happened in class. Everything went on usual, until...Lunch. Normally, I would just rest as my desk, or sit in the corner of the hall myself. Today, I decided to sit in the hall, and something spectacular happened. A beautiful looking girl, which is one of my friend named XXX went to the hall too. As I went near her, she suddenly started talking to me, and also started crying. I couldn't believe what was going on. A beautiful girl, suddenly talks to me, and starts crying. In front of me. Goodness, I must be dreaming, but I wasn't.

As she started talking and crying, I felt really bad and sad at the same time. She was crying because she had problems with one of her friends. I felt really sad for her, as there's nothing much I can help, and despite how she always help me when I feel down in the dumps. I also felt bad because, how can you even have a beautiful girl cry in front of you? I mean seriously. There's a beautiful girl, crying and talking to you about her problems, and there's nothing you can do about it. Of course I'll feel bad! XXX and her friend had problems on-and-off for at least 1 year now. I really hope they can sort it out, for everyone hopes to patch a quarrel up.

I also illegally had expired chewing gum in school today, as our school bans from eating chewing gum.

Everything else went smooth as usual today. I hope everything will turn out nicely tomorrow, and also everyday.
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